the silent poet
- Joachim Verheyen
- Apr 30
- 2 min read

(this poem was recited at the group council of the Karuna silent retreat 2025 in portugal)
it is never easy
poetry
in a language that is not your mother’s tongue
i therefore ask you for forgiveness
whenever i say something wrong
humble do i sit before you
grateful for your time
to share with you some thoughts
perhaps an insight
that i should not consider mine
i find it a bit strange
uncomfortable
maybe even a paradox
we came here to be in silence
just sitting
no thinking
ignoring ticking clocks
yet here i sit before you
you listening
to some insight that i was supposed to gain
i ask you to lower your expectations
for your waiting will be in vain
it is not that i do not wish to share
my so-called wisdom with you
the truth is
my ego is screaming
to show you what my mind can do
but i have been here in silence
just sitting
waiting in despair
my mind producing no insights
no wisdom
that i deem worthy to share
it is frustrating
my ego is crying
is this really it
but what could i expect
the instructions were clear
no thinking
focus
just sit
i know we were told to speak from the heart
not rehearse
not prepare
it is not that i am ignoring these instructions
or that i simply do not care
i seriously considered
balancing words
but realised in contemplation
my message would get lost
my ego would freak out
rhyming in improvisation
then again
i hoped this week would make me humble
to help my ego transforming
i consider myself failed
sitting here
not speaking
but performing
at the same time
making this confession
allows me to show my vulnerability
so i do not know
if it truly is my ego
rhyming for you
in full fragility
if i were to pick one feeling to take home
sitting here
i hope that may be
gratitude
for you listening
to the silent poet
that has awakened within me
-
i wanted to end my poem here
but there is still one thought
stuck in my mind
it’s humour
master hamid explained
to enlighten my words
and leave no one behind
but i will not
it feels inappropriate
to tell something funny
after what i just said
so i will leave all the jokes
nicely covered up
and stuck in my head
my true insight is
to embrace my ego
with compassion
and just sit
only then i can find the way
and lower my ego
as low
as piss and shit*
*Reference to Hamid quoting from a book of Chuang Tzu:
Master Tung-kuo asked Chuang Tzu, 'This thing called the Way (Dao) - where does it exist?'
Chuang Tzu said, 'There's no place it doesn't exist.'
'Come,' said Master Tung-kuo, 'you must be more specific!'
'It is in the ant.'
'As low a thing as that?'
'It is in the grass.'
'But that's lower still!'
'It is in the tiles and the shards.'
'How can it be so low?'
'It is in the piss and shit.'
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